I hold my breath as the last sliver

of daylight burns into nothing

as the sun sets behind the horizon.

The anticipation of having been

so mesmerized, enchanted, consumed

and now the realization

that I’m not sure what to expect next.

That is how it feels when I find

your eyes are as entranced with me

as I am with yourself.


Invincible Hearts

Things used to be

as simple as

telling someone

you liked them

on the playground

and they would say

they liked you too.


Instant relationship.

Being an adult

is so much harder.

There’s many factors

to consider,

people’s feelings

to interpret,

and endless actions

to overthink about.

When did things

get so complicated?

Can’t we go back to

when life was simple

and our hearts were


Red Light

Loving you feels like I am

waiting at a red light

at the top of a big hill,

putting all my strength

into pressing my break pedal

into the floor board

to stop myself from rolling

forward, even the tiniest bit

because I know that as soon

as I start rolling,

I’ll have so much momentum

I won’t be able to stop

and if I am going to go

racing full speed ahead

into my feelings for you,

I want to know that I’m

not going to crash and burn

once I reach the bottom.

Teacher Appreciation Day

Right now,

there is a little boy

sitting on a bus

with flowers in his hand,

bouncing up and down,

excited to give them to

his favorite teacher

in the whole wide world

when he gets to school.

But it won’t be me.

Because I’m not there.

He’ll wonder where I am

and his excitement will die

and it will wither down

just like the flowers

he places on my desk

because I can’t go get them.

and that breaks my heart.

Right now,

there’s a little girl

holding on to a bag

with a mug she picked out

and a card with her name

that she has been working

hard to learn to write

by herself all year,

eager to give it to

the teacher that makes

her smile and laugh all day

but it won’t be me

because I’m not there.

She’ll wonder where I am

and why I’m not with her

to make her smile

and to laugh all day.

And that breaks my heart.

It Should Be You

It should be you

walking in my door,

eyes lighting up

when they set on me.

It should be you

kissing my forehead,

calling me a cutie,

making me smile.

It should be you

with your arm around me,

pulling me into you

as we snuggle on my couch.

It should be you

running your fingers

through my hair with

my head on your lap.

It should be you

looking into my eyes,

making my heart race,

giving me butterflies.

It should be you…

It should be you.

The Only Joy

Sometimes I can’t help

my need to make others smile.

I will go out of my way

to do little things that I know

will make their day better

because I know what’s like

to fight the silent battles

and think no one is noticing.

Which is true, maybe we don’t.

I also know what it’s like

to be at your lowest point

and have someone show

the simplest act of kindness

and the difference it makes.

So I will do the things that

bring happiness into their lives

because you never know if

coffee, candy, a hug, a joke

will be the only joy

someone experiences today

and everyone deserves

to experience joy

every single damn day.

I Would and I Will

It’s nice to know

that you’re not mad

I watched an episode,

okay maybe a season,

of the TV show we

were supposed to wait

and watch together.

But I promise I will

stop and wait too.

I’ll watch it again

with you as many times

as you would like

because it will be

so much better with you

and because you are,

without a doubt,

worth waiting for.

There’s no one else

I’d rather enjoy it with.