I know that I’ll always love you
No matter the pain it causes,
No matter how much it destroys,
No matter how many tears come.
I know that I’ll always love you
Because I know that I am now
For the better in more ways
Than I’ll ever have time to count.
I know I’ll always love you
Though the street is not both ways
Because that is not what matters;
It’s the hope the feeling brings.
I know I’ll always love you
And of that I am grateful
For as long as I have hope,
I have a reason to live.
I am so over
All of the pain you cause me.
I am stronger now.
Nothing I do helps.
I’m a damsel in distress.
Please be my hero.
I can feel myself
slipping back to the dark days
of my depression.
Your happiness is
More important than my own
Because yours exists.
I need you to smile.
I need you to laugh.
I need you to make me feel
Like I am something special.
I need you to dream.
I need you to hope.
I need you to give me
A reason to go on.
I need you to breathe.
I need you to live.
I need you to know
you’re why I’m still going.
I don’t want to remember,
But I can’t forget
All those awful things you did
That ruined my life.
It pains me to remember,
But I can’t forget.
Panic attacks are common
When thoughts reappear.
It’s burned into my memory
So I can’t forget.
No matter how hard I try,
I can’t change the past.
I try not to remember,
But I can’t forget.
Never will I be at peace.
You have destroyed me.
Never shall I love
With the same intensity
That I feel for you.
No one else deserves
The feelings I have for you,
And only for you.
The love from my soul
Creates a warmth within it
Only you can have.
When I talk to you,
I can’t look you in the eye.
‘Cause I’m ashamed.
I am ashamed
Of the little that I am
In comparison.
When compared to you,
I know that I am worthless.
You deserve better
I ask myself now
what life is worth living if
I’m not good enough?
I’m not good enough
To waste your precious time on.
You have potential.
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