December Work

Work may be slow now,

But it’s 80 degrees there

so I don’t mind much.

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Perks of a lifeguard:

I can pretend it’s summer.

I get free coffee.

 

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Sami

One thing that I know

That I can always count on

Is my dog Sami.

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Sami makes me smile.

She is my only sunshine

In a house of gray.

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Sami is family

And very precious to me.

She is my first love.

Alone for the Holiday

Alone, yet again

for another holiday.

Me myself and I

will be present Christmas day.

No one to snuggle

and kiss under mistletoe.

No one to bring home

There’s no one to want to go.

Alone, yet again

No reason for me to brag.

To Christmas dinner

My parents will have to drag.

I love Christmas time,

but it gets harder each year.

No one to love me,

Kills all of my Christmas cheer.

 

No One Loves Me


No one loves me,

And I honestly think no one ever will.

I can’t keep telling myself this,

But I can’t stop either.

I can’t tell myself that it will be okay, that

That tomorrow will be different

When tomorrow never is.

I can’t pretend someone loves me

Because it only hurts more

When reality sets in

And I have to face the truth.

No one loves me,

And I can’t change that.

I can’t ask someone to love me

When I know the answer already.

Why set myself up for failure.

If someone loves me,

They would have told me by now,

And I wouldn’t have to spend

Another night alone,

Crying into my pillow

Hoping my heart will stop

So that the tears finally end.

Pizza For Breakfast

Doing things differently

Every once in a while

Is good for the mind,

Good for the soul.

Just tell me why

I shouldn’t eat pizza

For breakfast today

If it’s in my fridge.

I don’t always have

To eat a plain bagel.

And why shouldn’t I

Wear neon pink lipstick

On a dreary Monday?

Is there anything

that says maybe  I shouldn’t

rearrange my room

To keep things exciting?

Little changes keep me alive.

They keep me motivated

To get up every day

And expect today to be

Different from yesterday.

I need to know that

The future is brighter

Even if that means

Consuming cold pizza for breakfast.

For breakfast today.

 

Slave to Love

Being in love is such a freeing thing,

But only when felt by both parties.

I have no freedom to whom I love.

I am a slave to love.

It has a hold on me.

And I am stuck in my state.

I can’t love all I want,

but I won’t be free until I’m loved back

And that just won’t be happening,

Not in this lifetime.