Work may be slow now,
But it’s 80 degrees there
so I don’t mind much.
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Perks of a lifeguard:
I can pretend it’s summer.
I get free coffee.
Sami
One thing that I know
That I can always count on
Is my dog Sami.
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Sami makes me smile.
She is my only sunshine
In a house of gray.
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Sami is family
And very precious to me.
She is my first love.
Alone for the Holiday
Alone, yet again
for another holiday.
Me myself and I
will be present Christmas day.
No one to snuggle
and kiss under mistletoe.
No one to bring home
There’s no one to want to go.
Alone, yet again
No reason for me to brag.
To Christmas dinner
My parents will have to drag.
I love Christmas time,
but it gets harder each year.
No one to love me,
Kills all of my Christmas cheer.
No One Loves Me
No one loves me,
And I honestly think no one ever will.
I can’t keep telling myself this,
But I can’t stop either.
I can’t tell myself that it will be okay, that
That tomorrow will be different
When tomorrow never is.
I can’t pretend someone loves me
Because it only hurts more
When reality sets in
And I have to face the truth.
No one loves me,
And I can’t change that.
I can’t ask someone to love me
When I know the answer already.
Why set myself up for failure.
If someone loves me,
They would have told me by now,
And I wouldn’t have to spend
Another night alone,
Crying into my pillow
Hoping my heart will stop
So that the tears finally end.
Pizza For Breakfast
Doing things differently
Every once in a while
Is good for the mind,
Good for the soul.
Just tell me why
I shouldn’t eat pizza
For breakfast today
If it’s in my fridge.
I don’t always have
To eat a plain bagel.
And why shouldn’t I
Wear neon pink lipstick
On a dreary Monday?
Is there anything
that says maybe I shouldn’t
rearrange my room
To keep things exciting?
Little changes keep me alive.
They keep me motivated
To get up every day
And expect today to be
Different from yesterday.
I need to know that
The future is brighter
Even if that means
Consuming cold pizza for breakfast.
For breakfast today.
Slave to Love
Being in love is such a freeing thing,
But only when felt by both parties.
I have no freedom to whom I love.
I am a slave to love.
It has a hold on me.
And I am stuck in my state.
I can’t love all I want,
but I won’t be free until I’m loved back
And that just won’t be happening,
Not in this lifetime.
But I Can’t
I want to tell you, but I can’t.
I know I should, but I can’t.
It feels so right, but I can’t.
I want to hold you, but I can’t.
I want to be with you, but I can’t.
I want to love you, but I can’t.
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