Alas, I have finally lost all hope.
Nothing to do now except to mope.
Gone
The last little piece of my soul is gone.
I don’t know how I will ever go on.
The Bridge
I found a bridge
with a spectacular view
of a world far below.
There’s a valley of trees
and leaves of countless trees
surrounding the river flow.
The bridge is a 180 feet high
and spans over a mile
for the cars to zoom along.
When I go over this bridge
I can’t help but think
should I turn my wheel wrong?
They Don’t See
When people look at me, they just see my stretch marks.
They don’t see the 5 lives I’ve saved.
They don’t see me giving back to the community.
They don’t see me teaching young children to read.
When people look at me, all they see is my weight.
They don’t see my athletic career.
They don’t see my honors diploma.
They don’t see my kindness.
When people look at me, they just see my obesity.
They don’t see me volunteering with dogs.
They don’t see me working 3 jobs.
They don’t see who I really am
And that’s a true shame.
I Shouldn’t Have Done It
I know I shouldn’t have done it,
but it was so easy. It just felt right.
How could I stop myself from sliding
into something that felt so natural?
Love had me in it’s grips
and there is no escaping.
One look from you and I knew.
I knew that I was powerless.
I knew I would succumb to you.
I knew that you were the one.
But I didn’t know how much it would hurt.
I didn’t know how it would kill me
to realize you’d never feel the same.
I didn’t know it would take over my life.
Why did I have to fall in love
with someone who could never love me?
You broke me and I’ll never be the same.
Do Not Fall in Love
Do not fall in love.
It’ll only break your heart.
I know it broke mine.
Tricks
My life plays tricks on me all the time.
It seems to think cruelty is fun.
Whether it’s a warm beautiful day
followed the next day by a blizzard
or if it’s making me believe that
someone I love could return feelings,
it likes to play nasty, hurtful tricks.
Why must life do this to me so much?
What did I do to deserve all this?
Why is it that every time something
joyful happens to me it must be
followed by something just as awful?
Life is one step forward and one back.
I can’t ever seem to get ahead.
Why can’t I have unconditional
happiness just once in awhile?
Why does my life enjoy playing tricks?
Just once I’d like things to go my way,
but life doesn’t work that way, does it?
This House is Just Like Me
The house I grew up
is slowly falling apart
just like me.
It’s used and broken.
No one will ever want it
just like me.
It’s an unattractive eyesore
to everyone sharing this town
just like me.
and it’s filled to the brim
with things it’s trying to hold in,
just like me.
No one comes to visit
and honestly, why would they?
This house is just like me.
Inferior
I hate what I’ve become.
I hate how I look.
I can’t even look in the mirror.
When I see other girls
with their boys and makeup
I can’t help but feel inferior.
It’s hard to be proud
of the way that I look
when even I know I’m fat.
People can lie
and tell me I’m fine,
but there’s no truth behind any of that.
I know I’m not a ten
and I don’t want to be perfect,
but I wish I could turn just one head.
I’ve never been attractive,
but now I don’t even try.
I never want to leave my bed.
I wish I was pretty,
either inside or out,
but I’ll never be called “beautiful”.
I wish I could hide
and spare the world of my face.
For society and the world, I’m unsuitable.
It’s “Spring”
So when does this whole spring thing start?
Last time I checked it was April
and April is considered spring,
so what is with this cold white stuff
that is continueing to fall
from the sky despite the season?
I’m done with winter. Bring me sun.
I want to see rain showers soon.
I want to see flowers appear.
I want to see the school year end,
or at least hope that it is soon.
This Ohio weather kills me.
Let me wear sandals already.
I’m done with your shit Ohio.
Let’s just get this show on the road
and let’s stop playing weather games.
It’s spring. Start acting like it….NOW!!
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