Lately, I have been considering
what really makes me happy
but I do not have an answer.
I feel empty and lost
because I don’t have dreams.
When I was in high school,
when I should have been
discovering myself
and deciding what I want
to do with the rest of my life
all I wanted to do was die.
Now I’m at the point
where the light at the end
of the tunnel is real,
but I don’t know
what I want there to be
waiting for me at the end.
I’m lost and I’m scared
and I’m reverting back to my old tendencies.
I’d rather put an end to it all
than face the future that I don’t know;
the future that I didn’t create.
Baffy Basics 
Hi I hope you are OK..? Its hard to know how to respond to this. If you are having feelings about this please contact a friend or a doctor of the samaritans.
I can tell you that I felt like that years ago. I didn’t go through with anything because I thought of how it would effect my family and friends. I was at a change in my life and felt like I was stepping off a cliff without knowing whether I would fall or fly.
Please take care x
Christine
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Nice poem dear.
Non of us knows what the future holds in store for us that’s just a part of life dear, if you’ve come this far dear you will make it just keep looking forward.
❤️✌️
BY FOR NOW
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I hope you’re just exploring writing and sharing feelings that are stuck deep down. Please get help from a professional before you make a permanent decision about a temporary problem. Things CAN become better and you CAN be happy, it will take some work but you can do it!! Please keep writing to get it out but also if these are more than deep dark things most won’t say, please seek help!
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Dear Baffy,
Everyone has greatness stuck inside of them. You are not exempted. You need to give yourself a good rest, allow your mind to reset as many times as it has chosen to.
You can’t be too sure of what exist outside this world, but I can assure you that great things are possible here. Don’t give up on life.
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