Drinking Problem

I get depressed when I drink.

But only after I let myself hope.

There’s always that point

where I feel invincible; unstoppable-

I find the happiness I feel like

is always missing in my life.

I want to keep feeling that way.

I want to release the words

that hold me back when sober.

I get close to speaking them

but I can’t. I won’t.

I know it will only hurt me.

So I bottle it in until I cry

and it consumes me

until everyone thinks that the

drinking makes me depressed.

But It doesn’t. It makes me feel;

happy, hopeful, wishful, brave.

It’s reality bringing me down.

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