I’m starting to realize
that maybe it wasn’t just
the workplace that
suffocated me with poison.
Maybe the people
were just as toxic too
and I was too deep in
to realize it because
I needed something
to cling to for dear life.
I’m starting to realize
that maybe it wasn’t just
the workplace that
suffocated me with poison.
Maybe the people
were just as toxic too
and I was too deep in
to realize it because
I needed something
to cling to for dear life.
“We’re just tryin to help”
you say as you bring me to tears
laughing and having fun
as you bring to light all my fears;
Trying to give advice in a field
you have not had experience in for years.
You wanted to feel better about yourself
so you corned me and sucked out all my cheers.
“We just want to help you.”
Oh really? Is that so?
Then where the hell were you
maybe 5 or 6 months ago?
Did you “help” me when I
couldn’t afford groceries? No.
Did you check in on me
as I isolated? Again no.
Did you even notice I
was about to kill myself? Hell no.
So go ahead and keep that
“help” all to yourself.
That’s all you really care about
anyways…..
The last two years I was just surviving.
I can finally say that I am now thriving.
Every wish I could make is coming true.
Positivity a cloud sent out of the blue.
Dreams are coming to for me so fast
That I don’t have time to process the last.
It fills good for once to achieve a goal.
Success is filling my weary little soul.
It feels so good to finally feel at rest;
To know that for once I tried my best
and it was finally good enough.
No longer a diamond in the rough
Crazy to think that a day I thought would be my last
turned into a day I could look forward to so fast.
I’m no longer burdened by memories of the past
but facing a future of opportunities vast.