I have an insatiable desire
to explore this grand world,
but I don’t want to do it alone.
Nature can be an experience,
but when experienced with
someone you love deeply,
it becomes so much more.
It becomes a shared memory
and a building block in the
foundation of the life
you are trying to build together.
SO yes, I will go find that waterfall
all by myself if I have to,
but I find secrets are more fun
when you have someone to share them with
My love for you at times
feels as though I am
wandering aimlessly
through the desert:
lost, confused, desperate.
So many times I will
find myself dreaming of
your lips-my oasis
just waiting to quench
my never ending thirst
to be close to you.
And everyone once in awhile
I convince myself that
you have feelings for me too.
But I have been on this
tireless journey for so many years,
I have to stop and wonder;
Are they just a mirage?
You will forever be the treasure
I dedicated my life to find
Where there was a x to mark the spot,
I found you; one of a kind.
With a heart purer than gold
and eyes that shine like a gem;
you value is exorbitant
And you’r richer than any of them.
Loving you comes to me
the way waves do as they
connect with the side of a boat,
crashing over and over.
I anticipate the connection,
as I see nothing but waves
coming from miles all around me;
knowing the feelings
will rock my boat back and forth
as the little moments
of love crest on the next wave,
getting ready to rock my world
again and again
leaving me little time to prepare
for the next overwhelming bout
before the next one hits.
There are highs and lows
and no way off the ship.
I am stuck between waves
asking myself
“he loves me?
he loves me not”
time after time.
And as much as I love the highs
and salty breeze in my hair,
I am getting seasick
and am longing for a harbor.
I cannot stop thinking of you
for long enough to fall asleep
because when I start think of
you I realize I am in deep.
I mean I can trust that you will
make an appearance in my dream,
but. I would rather lay awake
thinking of the way your eyes gleam.
In a book I recently read
the main character said
“When you wake up next to
the person you love and
you quietly watch them sleep,
it should be difficult to
imagine a world in which
you don’t wake up next to them.”
This thought has been on my brain
a lot lately with my insomnia
because maybe the reason
that I can’t bare to fall asleep
is because I am tired of
waking up in a bed without
you lying right next to me.
Sometimes a few days
off from work in a row
will do wonders to heal you
and to also help you grow.
I’m just going to say
what your mom
and your dad
and your friends
and everyone else
has already figured out:
Make it official.
Everyone can see that
how you feel
is written all over
your face.
Stop living in denial
and
wife
me
up.
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