When an Experience Becomes a Memory

I have an insatiable desire

to explore this grand world,

but I don’t want to do it alone.

Nature can be an experience,

but when experienced with

someone you love deeply,

it becomes so much more.

It becomes a shared memory

and a building block in the

foundation of the life

you are trying to build together.

SO yes, I will go find that waterfall

all by myself if I have to,

but I find secrets are more fun

when you have someone to share them with


The Desert

My love for you at times

feels as though I am

wandering aimlessly

through the desert:

lost, confused, desperate.

So many times I will

find myself dreaming of

your lips-my oasis

just waiting to quench

my never ending thirst

to be close to you.

And everyone once in awhile

I convince myself that

you have feelings for me too.

But I have been on this

tireless journey for so many years,

I have to stop and wonder;

Are they just a mirage?


Loving you comes to me

the way waves do as they

connect with the side of a boat,

crashing over and over.

I anticipate the connection,

as I see nothing but waves

coming from miles all around me;

knowing the feelings

will rock my boat back and forth

as the little moments

of love crest on the next wave,

getting ready to rock my world

again and again

leaving me little time to prepare

for the next overwhelming bout

before the next one hits.

There are highs and lows

and no way off the ship.

I am stuck between waves

asking myself

“he loves me?

he loves me not”

time after time.

And as much as I love the highs

and salty breeze in my hair,

I am getting seasick

and am longing for a harbor.

Waking Up

In a book I recently read

the main character said

“When you wake up next to

the person you love and

you quietly watch them sleep,

it should be difficult to

imagine a world in which

you don’t wake up next to them.”

This thought has been on my brain

a lot lately with my insomnia

because maybe the reason

that I can’t bare to fall asleep

is because I am tired of

waking up in a bed without

you lying right next to me.