If you’re reading this,
I’m not mad.
I’m just disappoi-
No Nope. Yeah no.
I take that back,
I’m mad.
Good luck.
The Peak
The problem with climbing a mountain
is that at the peak, you’re on top of the world,
but the bottom is still there,
it’s just a much further fall now.
Light Switches
When I was a little girl,
I used to play with the light switches.
I made it a personal goal
to try to balance a switch right in the middle,
but it was never possible.
It always had to be slightly more up
or slightly more down.
It could never be perfectly evened out.
Yet, I pursued my goal
and constantly tried to correct it.
When the switch would waiver,
I’d try to reposition it.
This led to a lot of ups and downs
and a period of time where
the light would flicker on and off
until I finally would give up
and turn the lights off.
These last few days I have
felt like I am this lightswitch
being played with by a child.
I want neither up nor down.
I want to be centered,
but I have little flickers of
extreme emotions that appear
at a moments notice.
It’s a lot of ups and downs.
Balance is unobtainable.
I’m growing bored from
trying to control my light switch.
I think it’s time to turn out the light,
Having You Over Was a Mistake
Having you over was a mistake.
Before you came over,
I was already depressed,
But I had at least adjusted to the numb.
Being with you again reminded me
What it’s like to be happy.
But now you are too busy for me.
My happiness isn’t important to you
And I’m falling back into the dark.
The rock bottom is harder than before.
The pain is worse now.
What you did is wrong.
You teased me with a potential
Chance of feeling better.
And then you took it away from me.
I’m destroyed now more than ever.
Having you over was a mistake.
