Those Words

“You’re such a spoiled brat.

I don’t have time for your petty problems.

I have to take care of myself.”

Those are the words you yelled at me

as I sat in the hall

after you hung up on my friend

who told you I was going to try to kill myself.

Coincidentally,

those are also the words you yelled at me

when I decided that I hated you

because I knew at that point

I could never forgive you.

 

9 Years

9 years.

That’s a long time.

That’s how long I was waiting.

Waiting for you to notice me.

Waiting for you to see me.

Waiting for you to say you love me.

Waiting for you to hear me cry myself to sleep,

maybe on just one of those nights

and to ask me what was wrong.

That’s 3,287 chances you had

and you didn’t use any of them.

So now here we are.

You want to make amends

and try to make  it up to me for

all the times you ignored me

when I needed you most;

when you were all that I needed.

But you have damaged me.

I cannot be fixed.

I cannot be retaught that I deserve love

after all the times you showed me I did not.

 

 

 

 

The Most Important Thing You Can Know About Someone

One of the most basic,

yet important,

things you can ever know about someone

is their name.

How else can you know who someone is

if you don’t even know their name?

All other information you learn about them

gets associated back to that name.

It is the beginning of understanding them.

It’s the beginning of their story.

It is the first thing they were probably given.

A name is received shortly after birth.

It’s the first thing they probably told you about themselves

because it’s important to who they are

and they decided it was important

for you to know who they are too.

You should cherish being in the know.

Not everyone gets to know their name,

but you do.

So show a person that you value them

and can spell their name right.

Respect their name if they give it to you.

They didn’t have to.

Show them the respect they deserve.

If they tell you their name,

learn it and don’t forget it.

It probably won’t be changing anytime soon.

It’s literally the least you could do.

It’s one thing to mess up a name,

but entirely different to not know it altogether.

Names are important.

If that person is important to you,

knowing their name should be too.