But I Can’t, But I Won’t, But I Want to.

There are so many things I want to say,

but I can’t,

but I won’t,

but I want to.

 

I have questions I need to ask

but I can’t,

but I won’t,

but I want to.

 

I need to get my answers

but I can’t,

but I won’t,

but I want to.

 

I want to stop holding back,

but I can’t,

but I won’t,

but I want to.

 

I wish I could stop biting my tongue,

but I can’t,

but I won’t,

but I want to.

 

I want to end each call with I love you,

but I can’t,

but I won’t

but I want to.

 

I want to tell you how I feel,

but I can’t,

but I won’t

but I want to.

 

I want you to admit how you feel

but you can’t,

but you won’t,

but I want you to.

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Settling for Less

Dating anyone but you

would mean I’m settling.

How do I convince myself

that I’m actually worth less?

How do I tell myself

that I don’t deserve

everything I thought that I

could ever want in life?

How do I tell myself that

I can be happy with

someone who has less to offer?

How do I   live with myself?

How do I keep going

when I know what’s waiting

for me down the road

is just disappointment?

No one can ever compare.

You’re the gold medal.

Everyone else just feels like

a participation trophy.

 

Chasing the Same Story.

I’ve spent a third of my life

Chasing the same story.

I’ve gotten nowhere really

And I’ve had no glory.

Somedays it feels hopeless,

Like I’m never going to win,

But then he says something

And I’m stuck with a grin.

Sometimes he calls me pretty,

Sometimes it’s that I’m the best.

When he looks at me,

I forget all the rest.

It’s been seven years

And I’ve gotten nowhere

But I wouldn’t trade anything

For the memories that we share.

I Know I’ll Always Love You

I know that I’ll always love you

No matter the pain it causes,

No matter how much it destroys,

No matter how many tears come.

 

I know that I’ll always love you

Because I know that I am now

For the better in more ways

Than I’ll ever have time to count.

 

I know I’ll always love you

Though the street is not both ways

Because that is not what matters;

It’s the hope the feeling brings.

 

I know I’ll always love you

And of that I am grateful

For as long as I have hope,

I have a reason to live.