Holiday Feels

Nothing quite brings out the “Holiday Feels”

like being the only single one at the table.

Nothing reminds me of the hurt

filling my empty heart

like seeing the love and joy that fills many others.

Nothing brings me such pain

as dreaded questions and comments like

“Why didn’t you bring someone?” or

“Oh, well there’s always next year”.

Nothing brings me such envy

as seeing kisses and tenderness

that I can only imagine in dreams

Nothing brings me the “Holiday Feels”

like being subjected to time with family.

No one

“It’s just a joke. It’s a game”

I say to hide my shame.

No one takes me serious.

 

“I was kidding, didn’t mean it”

I say to them to deny it.

No one realizes I struggle.

 

“I’m sorry I was offensive”

I say when I’m defensive.

No one can see my battles.

 

” I’ll just stop talking now,”

I say to try to describe how

I feel, because no one understands.