I don’t like the way I look,
for there is very little I can do to change it.
Believe me, I’ve tried many times.
I eat healthily, gain weight.
I go to the gym four times a week, pants don’t fit.
I do the expensive programs and the result?
my wallet slimmer, not me.
I do what I can to accept this is who I am though.
I’ll just always be a big girl.
It is what it is.
However, some days this is harder than others.
Like yesterday when I was getting dressed
and I found a new stretch mark.
I went back to bed and cried for three hours.
Why can’t I be someone else?