As the Days Go By

As the days go by,

the pain eases slightly.

I got out of bed today.

I only cried once today

when I thought of you.

 

As the days go by,

I miss you more and more,

but your disappearance

from my life seems to be

more natural and less abrupt.

 

As the days go by,

I can’t stop thinking of you

and all the memories we have.

I can get through the day again.

I can resume my routine.

 

As the days go by

It’s easier to face the future

and to leave the past behind.

I know I’ll see you again,

but good things take time.

 

 

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No Longer a Victim

Today is the last day that your name will ever cross my lips.

Your name does not deserve to be uttered by me.

You took something priceless from me that I cannot ever get back.

Six years ago you soiled me and made me feel worthless.

I’ve never mentioned your name to another living soul

because no one else should ever have to hear about you

or the awful things you’ve done to me.

But I just don’t have the time or energy left to carry this burden anymore.

It’s not even a burden I should have to carry.

Why should I be the one who feels guilty when I did nothing wrong?

I’m tired of making poor decisions for my life

just to cover up the pathetic one you made six years ago.

I want to move on with my life and never think about you again.

I deserve to be happy and find peace with myself.

I cannot change the past, but I can choose my future

and I want you to have absolutly zero part of it.

So today I’ll share your name just once,

not here because it’s more attention than you’ll ever deserve.

But I will be taking this burden off of my shoulders

and leave it in the mountains so I never see it again.

I’ll return home with a clean slate, no longer a victim.

It’s time to fight for what I actually deserve in life.

 

 

Song 6- Better Without You

*yet another breakup song. (I’m much better with describing sad feelings than happy ones apparently). Also from high school. Enjoy*

The day before my birthday, you pissed me off.

Your girlfriend got on Facebook and told me off.

You lied! You cheated! And now your conceited

Thinking you could pull it off.

You think it’s funny how you broke my heart.

It’s people like you that make wars start.

You’re stupid! Immature!Better off with her

Because you’re both pieces of trash.

I’m not angry, just betrayed

By the stupid choices you made.

You dumbass! You asshole!I’ll give you a mouthful.

You don’t treat a woman like that.

 

Didn’t your mama raise you right?

‘Cus now I’m gonna be up all night.

Crying my eyes out,

Crying with the lights out

Wondering what I did wrong.

 

But then again I know it’s not my bad.

You’re missing out on all you coulda had.

You know that I can do much better.

I have standards; I’m a goal setter.

Settling for you was my mistake,

But I’ll make it through the heartbreak.

Now I realize you’re just a decoy.

I’m off to find myself a better boy.

He’ll be a perfect gentleman.

On my scale he’ll be a perfect ten.

In the end I’m glad we’re through

Because I’m so much better without you.

 

February 13th you meet me at my locker.

At 8am, you know I’m not a talker.

You’re talking! I’m listening! the pain’s just beginning.

I can’t believe it happened again. Ugh.

You say you don’t want to be my valentine.

Not going to the dance suits you just fine.

You quitter! You player! I’ll send you a prayer,

Because lord knows you need it.

Now you’re just gonna walkout.

Found another girl by the end of the day.

You’re stupid! I hate you! You’re being so rude.

I could do without that attitude.

 

Didn’t your mama raise you right?

‘Cus now I’m gonna be up all night.

Crying my eyes out,

Crying with the lights out

Wondering what I did wrong.

 

But then again I know it’s not my bad.

You’re missing out on all you coulda had.

You know that I can do much better.

I have standards; I’m a goal setter.

Settling for you was my mistake,

But I’ll make it through the heartbreak.

Now I realize you’re just a decoy.

I’m off to find myself a better boy.

He’ll be a perfect gentleman.

On my scale he’ll be a perfect ten.

In the end I’m glad we’re through

Because I’m so much better without you.

 

What made you think

You could get away with murder?

Did you really think

I’d never see you with her?

Now that you’re gone

Let’s end the charade.

I hope you enjoy

Your new downgrade.

I can find someone new too.

Someone much better than you,

A boy that actually treats me well.

On the past, I’ll never dwell.

 

 

But then again I know it’s not my bad.

You’re missed out on all you coulda had.

You know that I did so much better.

I have standards; I’m a goal setter.

Settling for you was my mistake,

But I made it through the heartbreak.

Now I realize you’re just a decoy.

I went off and found myself a better boy.

He’s such a perfect gentleman.

On my scale he is a perfect ten.

In the end I’m glad we’re through

Because I’m so much better without you.