They say “good things come to those who wait”…
but do they?
That’s what I believed for 15 years
because that’s what I was taught;
that’s what I was preached.
I was told that good things would come
if I waited until I was married
and cared for.
Good things would come if I was patient;
if I followed the rules;
if I trusted in God.
And I did.
I did everything I was supposed to do.
So where were my good things?
All I got was trauma;
and the fear no one will ever want or love me now.
I am damaged.
I am broken.
I did what I was supposed to do.
I was waiting
but someone else decided I was not,
So I guess I don’t deserve good things.