As my undergraduate career comes to a close
in less than three weeks from today,
I’m finding that the amount of people that
are asking me what my plans are for
after I graduate is increasing substantially.
But the truth is that I really don’t have an answer
to satisfy their curious minds because
I truly don’t know what I am going to do.
Believe me: it’s more frustrating than you know.
I would love to have just one simple answer
to give upon request, but the thing is
that is so much harder to achieve than I thought.
There are so many options at my fingertips
that it is hard to pick just one to follow.
I tried on one, and decided I didn’t like it
and now I feel stuck once again.
As the world I know around me rushes to a close,
I find myself lost in the whirlwind with no direction
and it fills me with an anxiety I can’t describe.
People confront me and I don’t know what I want.
Well, I do.
It’s just not…
I don’t know: A possibility? Viable? Realistic?
It adds to my frustration even more.
I know when people ask me what’s next for me
they want information about my upcoming career,
but I guess the truth is that
that’s not what is important to me.
I have other matters of the heart and soul
to take care of first and until those are met
I can’t focus on anything else.
But my time is running out
and so is the money in my bank account.
I know I need to make a decision.
The pressure is on, but will I be a diamond?
Or will I just crumble?