Life’s a dick
and you’re only kidding yourself
if you think locking yourself
inside your house will
keep the bad things from happening to you.
It may keep out a stupid virus,
but far worse things can happen
when you put somewhere
you feel too comfortable.
Trust me I know.
4 walls can keep out a lot,
but they also hold a lot in.
One of the worse parts of anxiety
is the irrational worries and fears
it puts in my head.
Or maybe it’s the hours spent up at night,
lying in bed crying,
where I whisper to myself that it’s not real.
they’ll never happen.
Just keep pushing past them.
But what am I supposed to do
when one of those fear turns out to be true?
The pain going through my being
How do I tell myself that nightmares
are not real when they become reality?
The happy, carefree week of joy
has come to an end.
I’ve been transported back from
warm, sunny days full of smiles
and memories I’ll forever cherish
back to the cold, dreary world
I’ve spent years trying to escape.
As the half-frozen rains
and bone-chilling breezes
greet my face when I step out the door,
I recall the satisfaction
I had just days before
and remembering vacation reminds me that