I tell myself
not to worry;
everything will be fine.
But my anxiety doesn’t listen.
I tell myself
let them be negative.
You can still be positive.
But my anxiety doesn’t listen.
I tell myself
their words have no power
unless I give it to them.
But my anxiety doesn’t listen.
I tell myself
to ignore their drama;
Don’t let it affect you.
But my anxiety doesn’t listen.
I tell myself
to just let it go;
Move on with your life.
But my anxiety doesn’t listen.
I can’t sleep at night.
It’s tearing me apart.
I can’t stop thinking.
I am overthinking
every little thing.
Things I should just forget,
unimportant things,
suddenly consume me.
I’m anxious about
every aspect of life-
school, love life, work, home.
Constantly running but
I just can’t keep up.
Physically I’m behind,
but mentally I’m
so far ahead that I
see it’s all pointless.
I have more papers
left this semester than I
have syllables here.
It’s hard to act like
I have my life together
I obviously don’t.
It’s hard to act like
I’m organized and on top of things.
I’m obviously not.
It’s hard to act like
My workload isn’t stressing me out.
It obviously is.
It’s hard to act like
I’m conquering life.
I’m obviously not.
It’s hard to act like
the simplest things don’t cause a breakdown.
They obviously do.
It’s hard to act like
things are going to get better.
It’s not so obvious.
This just goes to show
that a glass of wine can solve
all of my problems.
Knife in the back,
Life is off track
Everything is out of place.
Feet off the ground
I’m flailing around,
Falling flat on my face.
There’re many storms to weather,
trying to get my life together
but some things left no trace.
Decisions to be made
and debts to be paid,
No special treatment in this case.
I am on my own,
lost and alone,
I’m last place in this race.
It’ll take hard work and time,
It won’t be an easy climb,
But everything will fall in place.
There’s a moment,
after turning off the hot water,
that I notice my surroundings
when it’s just me,
naked and alone.
There’s a moment
that I’m in a state of confusion,
unsure of where I am
when it’s just me,
naked and alone.
There’s a moment,
where I question everything,
where I feel everything,
when it’s just me,
naked and alone.
There’s a moment
that I try to commit
do I open a door and
feel a rush of new things,
when it’s just me,
naked and alone?
There’s a moment
when I touch the handle,
and I contemplate everything
when it’s just me,
naked and alone.
There’s a moment
when I decide to move forward,
and brace myself for the change
when it’s just me,
naked and alone.
There’s a moment
when I start to realize
even after the shower,
when it’s just me,
naked and alone.
In that moment,
I know nothing changed.
I’m just as vulnerable as before
because it’s just me,
naked and alone.
Finals are coming.
Brace yourself for the stress and
Late Night studying.
The clock is ticking.
It’s working against me.
I am standing still
but time is moving on.
Others walk past me,
achieving their life goals.
I am standing still.
I am going nowhere.
The future is near
And I don’t have a plan.
I am standing still.
I am falling behind.
Minutes become days.
And the days become weeks.
I am standing still.
Life is passing me by.
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