When I was a little girl,
I used to play with the light switches.
I made it a personal goal
to try to balance a switch right in the middle,
but it was never possible.
It always had to be slightly more up
or slightly more down.
It could never be perfectly evened out.
Yet, I pursued my goal
and constantly tried to correct it.
When the switch would waiver,
I’d try to reposition it.
This led to a lot of ups and downs
and a period of time where
the light would flicker on and off
until I finally would give up
and turn the lights off.
These last few days I have
felt like I am this lightswitch
being played with by a child.
I want neither up nor down.
I want to be centered,
but I have little flickers of
extreme emotions that appear
at a moments notice.
It’s a lot of ups and downs.
Balance is unobtainable.
I’m growing bored from
trying to control my light switch.
I think it’s time to turn out the light,
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