Poison

If everyone can emotionally poison me,

then why can’t I physically?

What’s one more toxic thing

to take over what’s left of me?

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Too Eager

They say not to suffer in silence,

but yet when I try to speak

they are the same people

taping my mouth shut.

They are all too eager

to offer their help

but only if they decide

you actually need it.

It takes guts to come

forward an admit

that you want to die;

to lay naked for them.

But they can turn

right back around

and laugh: “No way.

You’re kidding, right?

That’s not a real problem.

Just grow the fuck up.”

On goes the tape

and here comes the silence

while the demons inside

continue to poison.

 

 

Fall Changes

As the air gets colder,

the world begins to change.

Bees find their wings

no longer seem to work.

Tress are stripped bare

of their only disguise,

some times for the last time.

Flowers slowly freeze

and crumble away

until they are nothing

but a victim of death.

 

How lucky they are

Career-Driven Woman

I wish I had the passion

and the motivation at least

to be a career-driven woman.

I mean, you would think

that after 17 years of working

towards the goal of having

a career and good life

would make me feel

successful or even happy

like everyone said it would,

but it doesn’t.

All I feel is frustration.

Frustration from following

the steps and directions

everyone gave me in hopes

that I would have the life

that everyone said I should have.

Now that I have it,

I don’t want it,

and I’m not sure I ever did.

But now I’m stuck with it

 

 

 

 

2066.9

2066.9

the mountain air is quite crisp

and the smell of maples and pine

fills their lungs with something brand new.

 

At 2066 high

where the land meets the bright blue sky

and birds dare to spread wings and soar,

where they can see everything.

 

At 2066 feet

two young hearts begin to beat,

for perhaps the very first time,

together as love starts to grow.

 

Up at 2066,

above the crunching of dry sticks,

you can hear two souls come to see

without each other, they can’t be.

 

 

Another Day

The words are there

on the tip of my tongue,

waiting for me to say.

 

But every time

I get the courage,

I look the other way.

 

It’s killing me,

just sitting by,

postponing another day.

 

My biggest fear:

I’ll lose you

when you walk away.

 

Yet in my heart

I know you.

I think you will stay.

 

It’s just risky

and not a game

I’m willing to play.

 

So for now

I’ll wait around,

try again another day.

A Disney Movie

“Life is not a Disney Movie”

are the words an ex-boyfriend

screamed at me.

It’s part of the reason

he’s an ex and always will be.

If you don’t see me as

a princess, a priority, a future,

then there is no happy ending

for us in store

because I know I deserve

that and so much more.