It must be nice to be you.
Girls like you that look like that-
tiny, thin, attractive.
What society wants girls to look like.
It must be nice to be able
to talk about your weight
and weight loss with ease
in public settings like the pool.
But it’s not for me.
I know everyone has their struggles,
and a different mountain to climb,
but when you sit 5 feet from me
and complain about going from
104 pounds to 110,
and calling yourself fat,
it kills me inside.
You are so thin.
You re so confident.
You are so beautiful.
I would give almost anything
to deal with your dilemma.
Because as you stated,
girls our height are supposed to weigh
one hundred forty pounds max.
You may be far beneath that,
but I am far above that
and hearing you flaunt this fact
while I am in earshot
right after I just worked my ass off
discourages me.
I wish I could flaunt confidence
the way you can flaunt your stomach,
but I can’t. I’m insecure.
And my progress is slow
and a long journey awaits me.
But please, just please
let me feel comfortable
and supported
and empowered to take it.
Don’t slow me down.
I have an extra 100 pounds
to do that for me.