You were not what I expected
to see when I woke up at dawn.
I didn’t know you existed
until you were already gone.
One Little Christmas Light
Darkness is void of all colors.
It consumes everything around it.
Where you see nothing, you hear nothing.
You can only focus on the bleak emptiness-
That is until someone adds a little color to it.
One little Christmas light may not
be the thing that brightens the word,
but with a whole string,
a whole house,
a whole yard full,
the world seems a lot more promising.
So it is with you.
My world was dark until you added to it-
a whole lot of smiles
a whole lot of laughter
a whole day with you.
You filled my darkness with light
and the world seems a lot more promising.
Good Wine
They say that a good wine
improves in taste the longer
you keep it in the bottle.
That means years and years
of leaving it in your cellar
just anticipating the way
those sweet grapes will taste
the second they hit your tongue.
I wonder if people are more like
good wines than they know.
I, for one, would be a champagne
bursting with overwhelming bubbles
when you finally take the cork out
but I’ll be worth every drop.
Look in the Mirror
Look in the mirror
and what do I see?
All the reasons
no one will ever
want to love me.
My chin is round.
My face is lumpy.
My fat rolls make
me far to bumpy.
My lips are chap.
My teeth are not straight.
Is it really a wonder
I’ll never find a date?
My image is too wide.
My arms have fat that flaps.
I waddle, not walk,
each step my thigh claps.
My stomach is attrocious.
My legs have no appeal.
I’m going to die alone.
I’m only being real.
The Things You Never Noticed
The things you never noticed about me
during the “8” hours you used to see me
every single day at work:
-I pack the same meal for lunch every day
because that’s what the food bank gave me.
-I also stick around an extra hour after work
so it’s one less hour I have to be home.
-I don’t speak up for myself because
I’m used to punishment if I do.
– I never talk about my home life
because honestly? It isn’t great.
-Yes, I still live at home, you know
because I can’t leave.
Financially? Maybe I could escape
but I’ll never be free of him.
I don’t blame you for never noticing.
I never wanted to show this part of me
Because at work, I am happy and safe.
I wish it had stayed that way
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Dear Boss
Dear boss,
I care so much for these kids,
they’re my number one priority.
They’re all our number one priorities.
I worry about them day and night,
as I am sure you do too,
but now that the dust has settled,
I have to ask (and it kills me) but
what about me?
We’re worry about the kids at home
who won’t have enough food
or be guaranteed their meals.
But what about me?
We worry about the kids at home
who need help and support
who just aren’t getting it now.
But what about me?
We worry about the kiddos at home
who have stressful circumstances
that mean success is unlikely,
but what about me?
We worry about the kids at home
who might be abused or unsafe
without trusted adults there.
But what about me?
I am a selfless person
so it pains me to be egocentric,
but we’ve done all these things
to make sure our kiddos are okay,
but what about me?
Because I’m not.
Your Employee.
Isn’t It Funny?
Isn’t it funny how
concerned you are now that
if I go to the store,
I could catch an illness
and die,
but yet
where was this concern when
an illness was inside me
making me want to die
the last nine fucking years?
The Wind
The wind howling and banging
against the sides of this house
is enough to distract me
so that I forget that if
life was fair, I’d be packing
for a trip I was meant to
go on a week from today.
The Girl You Knew
The Girl You Knew was shattered;
in rambles; in shreds.
She needed to put herself back
into one piece again.
The Girl You Knew needed help
figuring out who she was now
that everything she used to be
was gone; you took advantage.
The Girl You Knew was vulnerable
and let you use her how you needed,
while she broke into tiny pieces
and lost further sight of herself.
The Girl You Knew cared about you
and was hurt when you left.
You found ways to hurt a girl
who was already hurting deep.
That’s not the girl you know now.
The Girl You Know Now is Confident.
She’s put her life back together
and come out stronger with a life
she is proud to live by herself.
The Girl You Know Now is motivated.
She did what she had to do
to be a better person
and live her best life.
The Girl You Know Now is fierce.
She is a born leader
who helps shape the future
and the world to make it better.
The Girl You Know Now is caring
She is loved. She is happy.
And most important of all
she doesn’t need you.
Reality Check
Reality Check:
Life’s a dick
and you’re only kidding yourself
if you think locking yourself
inside your house will
keep the bad things from happening to you.
It may keep out a stupid virus,
but far worse things can happen
when you put somewhere
you feel too comfortable.
Trust me I know.
4 walls can keep out a lot,
but they also hold a lot in.
Baffy Basics 