Good Wine

They say that a good wine

improves in taste the longer

you keep it in the bottle.

That means years and years

of leaving it in your cellar

just anticipating the way

those sweet grapes will taste

the second they hit your tongue.

I wonder if people are more like

good wines than they know.

I, for one, would be a champagne

bursting with overwhelming bubbles

when you finally take the cork out

but I’ll be worth every drop.

Look in the Mirror

Look in the mirror

and what do I see?

All the reasons

no one will ever

want to love me.

My chin is round.

My face is lumpy.

My fat rolls make

me far to bumpy.

My lips are chap.

My teeth are not straight.

Is it really a wonder

I’ll never find a date?

My image is too wide.

My arms have fat that flaps.

I waddle, not walk,

each step my thigh claps.

My stomach is attrocious.

My legs have no appeal.

I’m going to die alone.

I’m only being real.

 

The Things You Never Noticed

The things you never noticed about me

during the “8” hours you used to see me

every single day at work:

-I pack the same meal for lunch every day

because that’s what the food bank gave me.

-I also stick around an extra hour after work

so it’s one less hour I have to be home.

-I don’t speak up for myself because

I’m used to punishment if I do.

– I never talk about my home life

because honestly? It isn’t great.

-Yes, I still live at home, you know

because I can’t leave.

Financially? Maybe I could escape

but I’ll never be free of him.

 

 

I don’t blame you for never noticing.

I never wanted to show this part of me

Because at work, I am happy and safe.

I wish it had stayed that way

 

Dear Boss

Dear boss,

I care so much for these kids,

they’re my number one priority.

They’re all our number one priorities.

I worry about them day and night,

as I am sure you do too,

but now that the dust has settled,

I have to ask (and it kills me) but

what about me?

We’re worry about the kids at home

who won’t have enough food

or be guaranteed their meals.

But what about me?

We worry about the kids at home

who need help and support

who just aren’t getting it now.

But what about me?

We worry about the kiddos at home

who have stressful circumstances

that mean success is unlikely,

but what about me?

We worry about the kids at home

who might be abused or unsafe

without trusted adults there.

But what about me?

I am a selfless person

so it pains me to be egocentric,

but we’ve done all these things

to make sure our kiddos are okay,

but what about me?

Because I’m not.

 

Your Employee.

 

 

 

 

Isn’t It Funny?

Isn’t it funny how

concerned you are now that

if I go to the store,

I could catch an illness

and die,

but yet

where was this concern when

an illness was inside me

making me want to die

the last nine fucking years?

The Girl You Knew

The Girl You Knew was shattered;

in rambles; in shreds.

She needed to put herself back

into one piece again.

 

The Girl You Knew  needed help

figuring out who she was now

that everything she used to be

was gone; you took advantage.

 

The Girl You Knew was vulnerable

and let you use her how you needed,

while she broke into tiny pieces

and lost further sight of herself.

 

The Girl You Knew cared about you

and was hurt when you left.

You found ways to hurt a girl

who was already hurting deep.

 

That’s not the girl you know now.

 

The Girl You Know Now is Confident.

She’s put her life back together

and come out stronger with a life

she is proud to live by herself.

 

The Girl You Know Now is motivated.

She did what she had to do

to be a better person

and live her best life.

 

The Girl You Know Now is fierce.

She is a born leader

who helps shape the future

and the world to make it better.

 

The Girl You Know Now is caring

She is loved. She is happy.

And most important of all

she doesn’t need you.

 

 

Reality Check

Reality Check:

Life’s a dick

and you’re only kidding yourself

if you think locking yourself

inside your house will

keep the bad things from happening to you.

It may keep out a stupid virus,

but far worse things can happen

when you put somewhere

you feel too comfortable.

Trust me I know.

4 walls can keep out a lot,

but they also hold a lot in.

Two Sides of a Coin

I don’t try to look at the negative

but my anxiety does.

 

I don’t get angry or hold a grudge,

but my anxiety does.

 

I don’t overthink things

but my anxiety does.

 

I don’t care what others think of me

but my anxiety does.

 

I don’t get stuck on little things

but my anxiety does.

 

I don’t think my life is hopeless

but my anxiety does.