I could say I love you to the moon and back,
but that is simply not enough.
My love for you expands the whole universe
because not matter how many galaxies I imagine,
I can never create one where
I don’t find my world
revolving around you.
You will for ever be the center of my universe,
the light and warmth I cannot live without
and the one who makes my world go round.
You whisper to me
trying to get me to lose
the little focus I have
on what I’m doing
when I’m with you.
you play with me
starring me down
trying to get in my head
not knowing that you
have always been there.
you use on me
to distract me from winning
a simple card game
when what I want to win
is the whole game of life.
At least in chess there is a time limit
on how long you have to make a move.
I fully understand every decision
leads to a different result and ending
and I have no intentions of rushing
your strategy or our little game.
But I can’t begin to figure out
what I should do next
until you make up your mind first.
Don’t let the clock time out.
You can put in front of me
the most tremendous
in the world in front of me,
but all I will look at is you
Here we are.
In two different
places in the world,
looking at a computer
to find the answers we want
Welp. This is a blog
not google search.
You won’t find them here.
Of all the breath-taking views
I’ve stumbled upon in the last week,
you are still my favorite.
Imagine with me a world
where I maybe get married by 35-
that’s nine more years away.
That’s 108 rent payments I make
That’s 108 more times I have a panic attack
when I see the electric bill.
Or the gas bill.
Or the water bill.
Or remember I have a car payment.
Being single is just expensive
and I don’t think I can make it.
I’m dreaming of a Christmas
Hopefully not too far into the distant future
The last batch of cookies is out from the oven.
Filling the air with cinnamon and sugar delights
Jazzy Christmas music is playing over the radio
adding warmth and joy to my home.
He starts a fire in our new fireplace
that reflects off our stockings hung with care
next to each others for the first time.
The last of the gifts have been wrapped
and placed under the tree covered
in ornaments from our lives past and present.
I sit down on the couch beside him
with my favorite glass of wine in hand
and sigh with relief that I finally made it.
This is the life I always dreamed of.
Christmas at last with the one I love.
Kinda lame that here we are
in yet another winter storm
but yet here I am alone
with no one to snuggle with
when the power goes out
and I have to sleep with
fuzzy socks on because
I’m a little freeze baby.