Most of my days
consist of me,
sitting around,
waiting to be
noticed.
I watch and wait
for someone to
see me struggle,
but no one sees
me drown.
I scream for help
and wave a flag,
but somehow I’m
still forgotten;
ignored.
I’m dead inside
and soon to be
outside but yet
no one seems to
care much.
Baffy Basics 
For what it’s worth, I’m enjoying reading your work even though some of it is tough to read as your clearly not as happy as you could be. So, I guess I’m noticing you. Best wishes x
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thank you
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You’re very welcome.
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Seems to me…we all feel that way at times. And, you’ve captured that perfectly.
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thank you
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Every day… I wonder if it gets easier. Don’t know that it does. But what I do know, is that writing is my oasis, and provides a moment of peace and satisfaction for me at the end of each day. Guess I can’t quit my day job, but this writing thing is so much more meaningful at times. Even if it’s just for me.
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I am sure with your writing everyone will notice you 👏👏🤗
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I think we’ve all felt this way before, or even feel this way now. Stay strong!!!
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This may sound really pedantic, but I swear it’s not: I really like the font you use on your blog. May I ask what it is?
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Well thank you. The headings are Cherry Swash and the content is Karla.
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I have never contemplated suicide. Even in my lowest places. I think I’m incredibly lucky to be able to say that. I’ve known those that have, I’ve lost people to their successful execution of a plan. People will tell you the only person that can solve your issues is you and to an extent I think that’s true, but support and love go a long way to holding you up while you work out how the hell to do just that.
Don’t
Give
Up.
You are noticed.
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:((( This reminds me not just of something that I am probably most people have experienced but also of a book called The Love Me Bird (https://www.amazon.com/Love-Me-Bird-Joyce-Dunbar/dp/0439474310 ). In which a bird is singing and wants to be noticed (loved) for many pages singing its song of “Love Me”. The thing is, that just as we can’t tickle ourselves, there’s nothing that we ourselves can do about our own loneliness other than try to do something about the loneliness of others (and there’s a lot of it to go around, especially among the elderly and in any way disabled). By the end of the book the bird is not singing the song of the owl which is “Who Who” will notice me, not singing, “Love Me”, but singing “Love You, Love You” to which the bird receives the reply she/he awaited. I’ve noticed your cry and have experienced too that feeling of being dead inside, and the trees look dead now too, but it’s spring, and I hope your inner and outer life will blossom as they soon will.
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You are beautiful and have been successful in finding a forum where you are appropriately noticed!! Loneliness is a difficult plight. We all experience it and most people are good at faking or going to ridiculous lengths to avoid or cover it. It takes a huge amount of maturity to understand and embrace it. The Lord is crazy about you. You thrill and delight His heart and you are never really alone because He is always with you.
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I have only one advice to give; fall in love.
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I really appreciate what you say and how you say it. I understand the deep feeling in each word.
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